Living in this world for more than 20 years I have encountered a lot of things already. And there are certain things that made me questioned myself if I can do it.
There are instances when I doubt myself of doing things. Instances when I am not sure if I am able to do it.
When I am being faced by a circumstance which I think is hard, I often complain because of the limitations I put inside my head. And during those times you can always hear me saying "I don’t think I can do it", "That’s too hard! I am not able to do that.", and so on and so forth.
You see, even before trying I’ve already convinced myself not to even give it a try. Something which isn’t good at all.
With that same old attitude, I was just like a soldier who died on the way to the battlefield, just like a racer who doesn’t even tried to take one step forward to run. I was a quitter, I always say "NO!" even before trying, and that didn’t made any good for myself.
So, it did came a point in my life when I realized that I have to take all the risks if I really want a big change for myself. It’s just like something hit me and said "Act first before you complain, you shithead!"
Yeah, how stupid am I to complain and tell myself I can’t do it when in fact I’m not even giving it a try.
Giving myself a chance to try things out taught me a lot of things. It doesn’t matter if I failed or not. What’s important is that I learned to believe in myself that I can do things which my head thinks I can’t. Sometimes our mind says there’s no way that we can do it, when in fact deep within ourselves we really are well equipped to do certain things.
Sometimes, I just have to stop doubting myself in order for me to truly know the capabilities that I have. And truly I just have to take the challenge in order for me to know if I can do a certain task or not.
One of the many things that I have learned is that, failing in the process of doing things doesn’t make me a loser or a big failure. But doubting myself to do things and not even giving a try to do it is what makes me a big failure.
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"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt"
~ William Shakespeare
you’re such a mystery yods. and that makes you interesting. haha.
anyway
“doubting myself to do things and not even giving a try to do it is what makes me a big failure”
funny, coz i’ve just realized this very recently. 
@saminella- i’m kinda getting your point. nice story, thanks for sharing.
@yoshke- yeeh! i’m interesting ha. hehe. thanks!
you are right, even my friends tells me that i’m mysterious. they even told me that i am so unpredictable sometimes.
eeh. it also took me a long time before i realized that. hehe
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I remember our lesson in PI 100 (Rizal course), there was this family na famous sa pagtulay sa ropes. Yung father ng family crossed a rope between two buildings but he fell. His wife was interviewed later on and found out na it was that was the first time his husband thought about “I am not going to fall” instead na “i could do this.”
Sana may kwenta yung kwento ko. hehe.
Posted by Saminella at February 11, 2008, 12:28 pm